a new chance ???

dont know what it will bring. started this year very quiet and alone. thought about my life. what will be and what should......

I cut my hair. No longer long,but short. Urgh! But very airy *g*

and I decided to calm dowm. concentrate myself on the really important things of life. but still dont know what that means.......

need some brake in my daily routine. so much s*** blocking my life. it's a day to day thing - not more....and I hate it...ooooh,do I hate this!

but to brake out of this devil's circle seems so unreal.... have to pay back alot and in addition to that I pay about 800bucks each month for my kids..... hell.... never felt for Britney... but now I do... same probs..*lol*...same boat.... no kids....

how I hate that.... hate me......,... but I know I#m just unsatisfied with myself... need some change but life sucks... I need a stop .

I'm escaping and extruding. and then fighting to get my life back again. but nearlly nothing's changing...

well.tomorrow there's a new day.....

oh court, how I wish that I#m right with my lil saying *g*

c ya all next time...

greetz&dreams
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