I remember it was autumn 2006. I already had a new life, except I was still looking for my new name. but I had no friends. I felt alone and I wanted to go somewhere, to my dream place, east of europe. I wanted to go, but I couldnt. I had plans but not everything goes perfectly well. something was holding me back. I remember that the leaves were falling of the trees. it was getting colder. everything became so beautiful to me. except there was something missing.

I always wanted to listen to kelly clarkson, I liked her songs on the radio. and I also wanted to listen to so many other musicians, but something was pulling me towards kelly. I still cant explain. when I heard her songs, there was something in them. she was singing 'since u been gone', but in my mind I heard something like 'come to me'. kelly's songs were like hidden black holes, they were pulling me towards them, but I didnt noticed. someday I decided to start listening to kelly clarkson. 5th october was the day I got her songs. I loved them!!!! the next thing I know is that I joined KC message board. its a nice place with a lot of wonderful people. they are all kool :] anyway that hidden black hole thing appeared again!!!! it was miste :] there was something in that avatar she had, also in her name and everything about her. I cant explain. from all the possible ways, like if something on the river Nile was leading me to the right city, but then I came to this girl.

there was one thing that was always locked inside me. for 18 years it was like a treasure lying on the bottom of the sea. it was never opened before. but miste found that treasure. when she opened it, golden coins fell out. I think she was happy, because treasure was my heart and golden coins were my tears :]

*kasimir is crying* I forgot my handkerchief again. brb

so many golden coins fell out since then and miste started wearing the jewelry she found in that treasure. in other words, she became my friend :] flood!!!! the river Nile rised and it took me a little bit further. there was a girl called stasee. she also started wearing that jewelry :] so the flood of the Nile stopped, water went away and I ended in a place called evanescence. miste likes evanescence, so thats the reason why I'm listening to them. anyway in this place I met faith, razan and tamzie. they also started wearing that jewelry :] flood again!!!! other names appeared like sarah, lee, lottie, amy. floods never ends and the treasure remains open :] all this people found this treasure, so many things happened, I am finally happy, all because of one singer called kelly clarkson. I wonder where I would be, if I wouldnt joined kelly clarkson message board.

now kasimir wants hugs, so *hugs* :]